Four virtues and four methods
28th of January, 2008 - 18:58
The Buddha had some wise insights into the means for getting to know another thoroughly. While the text that inspired this blog entry is more of a chapter in general wisdom of life, the principles certainly apply in examining a prospective guru --- which has been the subject of many a discussion.
As for the misleading note
27th of January, 2008 - 9:34
My earlier note on misleading in the "Knocking on the Cocoon" entry led some to wonder what exactly I meant with that. Let's let that be clarified.
On the Siksa-guru Principle
26th of January, 2008 - 17:22
Some readers have wondered as to why one might accept a siksa-guru while the diksa-guru is still present. There are also a number of other considerations that are in place on the under-explored theme of the siksa-guru.
The Aparadha Issue
24th of January, 2008 - 15:37
With themes such as have been brought up in the last two blogs, the age-old issue of aparadha again raises its hoods. Let me clarify my position on this. First, I would like to acknowledge that I have read all the scriptural references on Vaisnava-aparadha as well as most, and have given due thought to them. When I write as I write, I write with knowledge of the said principles, making the choices that I believe are proper, truthful and righteous. I realize that not everyone may agree with my judgment calls.
TBI - Part 2 - Looking at the foundations
24th of January, 2008 - 11:40
I had initially thought of being much more reserved in over the depth in which I'd be writing of all this. However, as I realize there is nothing for me to lose in being more open, let's hear the full story. It'll certainly help people get an idea of where I'm at, and also learn of the route I've had to take. Writing is also a good form of processing the experience to ensure the removal of repressions from the subconscious. These entries seem to be becoming a bit elongated; I write as it comes. Read if you will, don't if you won't. Let's travel back in time to last spring...
The Babaji Incident - Part 1 - What blew it all
21st of January, 2008 - 14:42
Some were wondering about the details of my abruptly concluded stay with the babaji during Niyama-seva and a bit beyond. I was more than brief in my note after moving back to my own precious peace, after all. As I noted, the experience left me with many lessons in life. I have edited the earlier blog entry to remove references that would identify him by name to give me space to write more freely of the experiences, of which many may find something to learn. This is the first write-up in what I surmise will be an interesting series.
Application for 180 days of jail
18th of January, 2008 - 16:56
This is a translation of my letter of refusal from military and civil service sent to the Finnish civil service authority, should it be of interest.
Knocking on the Cocoon
17th of January, 2008 - 5:56
"Little late. You already misled many..." --- said the anonymous commentator on an earlier blog entry.
17th of January, 2008 - 5:31
Some of you have been missing philosophical writings. Here goes: Unity and difference of Atman and Brahman, doctrinal trouble with different strata of philosophy fused into a single doctrine, and God's creation of the chicken and the egg.
The Bodhisattva's Cocoon
16th of January, 2008 - 5:16
Some may have wanted to take a peek into my psyche for insight into the fundamental reasons of my present direction into solitude, the underlying impetus of my turn from the dim limelights of outreach. What has made the once almost all-permeating wish to help others subside? Is the bodhisattva now staring at the navel of his own fat belly?
About Sahajiyas, Ogres and Other Ominousities
2nd of January, 2008 - 15:46
This blog is here to clarify my views on sahajiyas, orthodoxies, ogres, blue flamingos and any number of other such subjects and entities people might be wondering about.
Difference between ISKCON and Gaudiya
2nd of January, 2008 - 11:03
Excerpt from correspondence.
Websites future - Input sought
1st of January, 2008 - 5:33
As a careful reader will have noticed, by sometime in the summer I will be dropping out of the GV internet scene altogether (occasional e-mails aside.) It is unlikely that I am to return, this transition off the world of internet has been a long time coming and is now nearing its definite final phase. Your input is sought.
As for the misleading note
Posted: 27th of January, 2008 - 9:34
My earlier note on misleading in the Knocking on the Cocoon entry led some to wonder what exactly I meant with that. Let's let that be clarified.
There is no doubt that the vast majority of things I've ever said in public fall within the proper framework of orthodox Gaudiya Vaisnavism. In fact, leaving the work I've done in this regard as one of my legacies is something I am quite content about, even if there would undoubtedly be room for improvement in many ways. What's in the books is in the books, and what the tradition here teaches is what they teach, and I have my level best represented the same. As such, my note on misleading was not tied with my being able to make accurate presentations on the different facets of Gaudiya Vaisnavism.
The problem comes when we enter the realm of applied Gaudiya Vaisnavism. The moment when people come and ask, "Okay, now what does this mean for me?". Having people place their faith in your advice, and thereby your assuming a degree of personal responsibility over it, is a lot more serious business than theoretical presentations can ever be. And it is in this very realm that I feel the dire presence of my shortcomings.
Some would opine that the former is still valuable, and that I could do much in that realm if I wanted to. In my experience, the first quite inevitably leads eventually to the second, and my nature makes it hard for me to refuse from helping people when help is called for. With this quirk of nature, I have often over-extended myself, and at times perhaps beyond the permissible limit, in attempts to facilitate others.
And I am decidedly not comfortable doing just half the job with something like this! This attitude isn't something I can thoroughly explain, nor is it something I would be inclined to debate about or enter into dialog over. The heart is the heart, and it feels as it does, and very few are those who would be able to adjust its fundamentals, especially if done with a pragmatic objective. It's only so long one can go against the current of one's heart.
This should give the statement on misleading a bit more of a context.
As a postscriptum to the entry on siksa-gurus, if it wasn't evident, then let me note that I am not talking "from the book" in, for example, listing different reasons why the diksa-guru might not be able to teach as much as desired. I am talking about experiences, observations and real life.
After speaking doctrine for many years, and before eventually withdrawing to solitude, I wish to make this one last contribution, namely my observations on how doctrine translates into practical reality. With that, I am not suggesting that anyone should follow my example, insights or anything else depending on my estimations. Process the information, make of it what you will, take the bits that would help you steer on a good course.
And should the inevitable happen, that is, someone writing and asking, "Now, given all that, what should I do?", please be aware that I will have no specific answer for you. My answer is this: Study everything carefully and be ever observant, know the principles and demand coherence from practical application, be thoroughly honest with yourself, and don't shy away from making moves that seem right or necessary for you, even if it means going against the mainstream. In your integrity lies your salvation, not in ritual confessions or obligatory conformance.