Yesterday, Advaitadas commented on my exit in his blog. These are some reflections on his message.


While I understand the obvious and expectable slant of the writing, I personally do not see why there ought to be sadness unless one assumed that Gaudiya Vaisnavism is the only worthy path to follow. Oh well, I suppose this is a common base attitude. I have come to consider it an unfortunate and narrowminded perspective, and indeed had come to think so even in my later Gaudiya days.

There is no need to abstain from kicking me, or engaging in any other form of honest expression — everyone should feel free to comment on the issue as they see fit. I am not down, except if looked at from a small and subjective point of view — I am in fact in very good spirits, filled with inspiration owing both to future prospects and ongoing experiences.

I am not inclined to re-open the discussion on the "blindly and consistently side with Jagat in whatever apostasy" issue. The phrase above tells more about the color of history sunglasses that are being worn than of anything else.


There is no reason to blame Jagadananada for anything. Our friendship was — and is — built on common attitudes we shared. To consider that Jagadananda's thoughtful and bold contemplations that often went outside the orthodox box were the cause of a sinister infection that polluted me is to suppose I was a blank slate before our paths crossed.

In general, there is no reason to blame or to seek the perpetrators here. Words like "demise" again betray this unfortunate narrowness of perspective, a perspective that doesn't seem to find anything positive in the recent developments. Well, except for the realization that exclusive bhakti wasn't really my deal anyway.


I have nothing to comment on the sentence above, I just wanted to highlight it.


I have always been aware of my mega-brain and matchless sex appeal, but I don't think I've ever tried to pass off my sexy, charismatic persona as real or pure devotion. If people have mistaken my hot looks for real spiritual splendor, the blame may be more on them than on me.


I have little to say in the way of not having a heart polluted by many a vice, but it'd regardless be prudent to recognize that not all ambitions grow from evil roots — some ambitious undertakings may well spring from noble thoughts and sincere objectives.

I appreciate Advaita's recognition of my computer help to him over the years. He has also been a source of inspiration to me in many ways, and I owe him a great deal especially from my early days in approaching traditional Gaudiya Vaisnavism. I'll not make this sound like an "In Memoriam" address however, and will stop here for today.