Sai Baba Magick and Puttaparthi Mountains
31st of March, 2008 - 12:33
A few days back, as our route took us to Bangalore, we also spent a few days in Puttaparthi, the ashram of Sathya Sai Baba, the famous Hindu teacher, considered by his followers to be an avatar.
Taoist-Maoist Indiana Jones
31st of March, 2008 - 12:29
The gurubhai seers of Radhakund have now realized that I have become a Tantric and a Buddhist Sannyasi, and concluded that my fame deserves to be spread...
Theravada 4 Eva
27th of March, 2008 - 13:41
To adopt a new conceptual framework, to revise the old, or neither, or both? Thoughts in principle on evolutions, revolutions and renunciations, on current emphases and future possibilities.
Shankara, Bhagavata-purana and Advaita-vedanta
25th of March, 2008 - 4:08
The first installment in exploring earlier themes of Vedas, Advaita, Buddha, Brahmanas and so forth in some further detail.
Anger Danger
24th of March, 2008 - 16:14
With my recent writings on the evolution of my views on Hinduism, featuring a departure that to many is irreconcilable and to some also unforgivable, expressions of anger have again become a theme of some contemplation to me.
Question to Readers
23rd of March, 2008 - 5:30
I don't really have a very clear picture of the demographics of the current Vraja Journal readership. Here's a question to the readers.
Gods Forsaken, Paradise Lost
22nd of March, 2008 - 19:44
Being a Buddhist means I no longer believe in god. Right? Well, let's be a bit more nuanced here.
Buddha, Vedas and the Brahmana culture
21st of March, 2008 - 13:30
Buddhism earned the nastika (atheist or infidel) label owing to the Buddha's rejection of Vedas. However, rejecting the Vedas isn't as black and white an issue as one might assume. This is a look at the Vedas the Buddha knew of.
From the Sahajiya Watcher
20th of March, 2008 - 13:03
A gem from recent feedback from Harry Krishna, a self-appointed sahajiya watcher.
Exclusive Devotion
18th of March, 2008 - 10:45
I wish to write a few words on the "exclusive devotion" theme of an earlier entry to clarify my views on bhakti.
Exit Madhava
16th of March, 2008 - 10:41
Yesterday, Advaitadas commented on my exit in his blog. These are some reflections on his message.
Style Revision
16th of March, 2008 - 5:52
Following the change of spirit, the form of the journal has undergone a due transfiguration.
Vraja Journal - Disclaimer
15th of March, 2008 - 15:57
What's the future of Vraja Journal? It'll continue, albeit in a somewhat different spirit. Please read this disclaimer before reading any further.
Dharma Reloaded
14th of March, 2008 - 18:37
Many readers of this journal have been wondering about the evolutions in my slant on things and my spiritual direction in general. Time has come to address matters in definite terms.
Vilasa Kunja Status
12th of March, 2008 - 16:13
I'm aware Vilasa Kunja and the rest of the sites (except for Vraja Journal) are down. Here's the latest on that.
Asubha: Meeting Corpses and Death
9th of March, 2008 - 16:51
Walking around the ghats of Varanasi, death is a common sight. The large piles of firewood tell their story of the volume of corpses daily burnt.
Our Shared Journey
4th of March, 2008 - 15:03
There was an earlier blog on misleading, commenting on the feedback of someone who came forward in a rather pointed manner about it. This is something, slightly retouched, I wrote to a friend who asked whether I truly felt I had misled someone.
Delhi to Varanasi
1st of March, 2008 - 13:25
Reaching New Delhi, booking train tickets, killing a few extra hours, observing the ominous Buddha-presence, moving towards Varanasi...

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Exit Madhava
Posted: 16th of March, 2008 - 10:41
Yesterday, Advaitadas commented on my exit in his blog. These are some reflections on his message.

Sad as it is, his departure does not surprise me. I don't want to use this blog to kick a man when he's down...

While I understand the obvious and expectable slant of the writing, I personally do not see why there ought to be sadness unless one assumed that Gaudiya Vaisnavism is the only worthy path to follow. Oh well, I suppose this is a common base attitude. I have come to consider it an unfortunate and narrowminded perspective, and indeed had come to think so even in my later Gaudiya days.

There is no need to abstain from kicking me, or engaging in any other form of honest expression — everyone should feel free to comment on the issue as they see fit. I am not down, except if looked at from a small and subjective point of view — I am in fact in very good spirits, filled with inspiration owing both to future prospects and ongoing experiences.

I am not inclined to re-open the discussion on the "blindly and consistently side with Jagat in whatever apostasy" issue. The phrase above tells more about the color of history sunglasses that are being worn than of anything else.

Since then Madhava could never really give up his deep friendship for Jagat, and that might have led to his demise.

There is no reason to blame Jagadananada for anything. Our friendship was — and is — built on common attitudes we shared. To consider that Jagadananda's thoughtful and bold contemplations that often went outside the orthodox box were the cause of a sinister infection that polluted me is to suppose I was a blank slate before our paths crossed.

In general, there is no reason to blame or to seek the perpetrators here. Words like "demise" again betray this unfortunate narrowness of perspective, a perspective that doesn't seem to find anything positive in the recent developments. Well, except for the realization that exclusive bhakti wasn't really my deal anyway.

When put to the test Madhava repeatedly failed in respect, honesty, humility, modesty and integrity.

I have nothing to comment on the sentence above, I just wanted to highlight it.

Real devotion is not shown through a mega-brain, eloquence, quoting lots of verses, sex appeal, fancy glittering uniforms, fancy titles or having many disciples.

I have always been aware of my mega-brain and matchless sex appeal, but I don't think I've ever tried to pass off my sexy, charismatic persona as real or pure devotion. If people have mistaken my hot looks for real spiritual splendor, the blame may be more on them than on me.

Even his staunchest supporters won't deny his strong ambitions.

I have little to say in the way of not having a heart polluted by many a vice, but it'd regardless be prudent to recognize that not all ambitions grow from evil roots — some ambitious undertakings may well spring from noble thoughts and sincere objectives.

I appreciate Advaita's recognition of my computer help to him over the years. He has also been a source of inspiration to me in many ways, and I owe him a great deal especially from my early days in approaching traditional Gaudiya Vaisnavism. I'll not make this sound like an "In Memoriam" address however, and will stop here for today.
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