There was an earlier blog on misleading, commenting on the feedback of someone who came forward in a rather pointed manner about it. This is something, slightly retouched, I wrote to a friend who asked whether I truly felt I had misled someone.

We have all grown and evolved together, from the very early days of the Raganuga forums on. Over the years, a careful observer will have noticed how my views and experiences have changed as they've evolved, and some emphases once made may not be what I feel and understand today.

Really, if someone has been mislead by me, and I'm not saying it isn't possible, it has been owing to his naively taking another sadhaka's (as sadhaka by definition means one who evolves) insight on par with final truth. I've never pretended having perfect and final answers, even though I've certainly given offering good answers my best effort.

My feeling of shortcoming really has more to do with my own uncertainties, yet to be resolved, on how the game plays out in the end, and on the moves I need to make to ensure final attainment. Hence the quest for siksa-gurus and so forth, and the more recent explorations of other spiritual traditions that share common bases with Gaudiya Vaisnavism.

To return to the simile of the blind led by the blind; a more applicable simile would be in comparing me to a man who's helped his fellow travelers up to a valid point on the journey, there realizing he can't bear the responsibility of showing everyone to the end, himself not in the know. And frankly, we all started walking together without much thought on who leads and who follows. Where possible, I tried to help in showing the way onward.

It's a point, however, where I need to take my daring step on my own and head to the wilderness. Fortune favoring, perhaps I'll one day return to tell of the path I walked, having reached or at least directly seen the end.